12/21/2023

Monster Cereal Party

I got this dope new tattoo. It was a gift to myself for finishing this semester. I wanna get a booette tattoo at some point (and honestly have too many tattoo ideas. I love the way that getting tattooed forces existing in the present moment. It's an achievement of gnosis, an altered state of consciousness, through an ordeal.

I've also felt more secure and less anxious but I've realized that anxiety is a major motivator for me and I feel a little without focus without the anxiety to drive me. I have savings and a credit card and work experience now so like, my job performance just doesn't make me as anxious anymore.

I've also realized I'm burnt out to some degree and I just can't deal with doing anything other than relaxing right now. Its been a long year and I'm done. I feel confident in my ability to do well, but I'm just out of it. I've been assigned papers, a textbook, and some powerpoints to read for my independent study with a world renowned master in my field and even then I just can't be bothered..