Things have changed. I'm single now. We're going to couples counseling to see if there's anything that can be done to repair the relationship. I've changed radically over the past year and come to some deeply painful realizations about myself. I think my unmedicated ADHD made get hyperfixated on people as potential partners. I think I lied to myself about my preferences in a partner and forced myself into things I didn't really want to do. I also failed at communication. I've talked to my therapist and recommitted to taking therapy seriously. I want to become the best version of myself I can be when it comes time to adopt.
I'm close to applying to graduate as well and that means I'm starting to think on what's next. My thesis project was truly massive and we collected enough data to work on a PhD from that. However, I don't want to start the PhD right away. Instead, I've got some major health things I'm going to work through this next year. First off, I'm in physical therapy because of scar tissue in my shoulders. I've got a hernia that I want taken care of as well. I've got a gender affirming breast augmentation coming up too. From there, I'm probably going to get braces because malocclusions are starting to hurt my bones. I'm also bracing to start bottom surgery prep again. This is a year that will alter my body and I need to focus on loving it through this before I go back to school.