I have twenty nine days until I get bottom surgery. This is something thats taken six years and five surgeons to achieve ad its happening now. I'm basically useless right now. I have my list of things that need to get done before surgery and thats all I'm really able to do. I talked to my therapist and I know that this is normal and natural and that I need to be compassionate with myself, but it's still really frustrating when I'm used to being able to write, dance, and do my hobbies on top of work.
My book on medieval gender studies arrived today! I'm picking out some more medieval studies books to read while I'm recovering from surgery. It's sorta hitting me that I love medieval gender studies and that it's relevant because we are fighting the Dark Enlightenment which uses revisionist medieval history to argue for its aims. I hate that people who don't even know what a garderobe or a rushlight are suddenly think they can summarize a thousand-year period of history with no single economic and political system and say "yeah, we should return to that."
I fucking hate reactionaries. Anarchism forever. Be gay, do crime.