08/23/2026

Take Me Away, Fae

Howdy. We've been dealing with a lot. I have OCD, specifically harm OCD. This means I feel like I'm a threat to my friends and family and like I need to be removed or killed to protect them. These thoughts are not rational and reassurance just makes it worse. I made a mistake in a conversation and had a bad OCD day the other day. I've also been having relationship and work difficulties because my girlfriend is very traumatized and I have to work while pretending we're not in a fascist hellscape.

So I saw a fairy circle and was like "being kidnapped by some fairies can't possibly be worse than this. Put me in, coach!

I broke 10,000 words on Aralise and made a minecraft skin of Aralise in her Leafcutter Day dress, only realizing after that it looks like an Arizona tea can. I also have to do this feminist noir and lunarpunk story. Right now, I'm really concerned about the letters of recommendation for the MFA and I'm going to have to ask people for them. I need to get this done in less than 60 days with surgery coming up. Also, with Aralise, I'm working on a Civilization 5 mod for it, so you can play Civ V and Minecraft with stuff from my setting!

We saw Teenage Sex and Death at Camp Miasma. It made me realize there are some awakenings I haven't quite had despite being in my 30s. I've also been progressing in pole dance physically but not sensually and it makes me think that maybe those things are connected? I also beat Resident Evil 7, the first half was fun. I'm going to keep consuming books, games, and movies so I can be a better writer.