
Hello, I'm really burned out right now. ADHD makes it really hard for me to tell how long things will take and when I have too many responsibilities, so I end up with too much on my plate and then all the plates that I'm spinning end up crashing to the ground. I love my friends. I love helping people. I love reading and writing. I love so much, but there are not enough hours in the day to do everything.
ADHD is a disability to me. It keeps me from accomplishing the things I want to do and makes it harder to plan and prioritize in general. I am a silly little cow-skunk-thing and I am truly uncertain how I got this far in life. I shouldn't have a masters, a relationship, and financial stability with how messed up my brain is. I got here by masking and burning all my energy, but in some ways ADHD is like always being a kid and I'm tired and cranky now.
I'm glad my plans fell through. I'm gonna soak in a hot tub tonight. I'm reading a book of folk tales and I'm gonna read myself to sleep with it. I'm also gonna have some pawpaw Ale-8-One today with some frozen pizza. Tomorrow, I'm cuddling with a friend. I need to be soft and loving and gentle with myself, which is not how I was raised at all.
Toxic masculinity makes self-care so hard and I'm glad I don't have to pretend to be a boy anymore.
This is my cat, Sugar! When I met her, she hissed and attacked me every single time I touched her. Now, she is a mommy's girl who lives in me and my partner's laps.