One of my girlfriends has decided that polyamory isn't for them and is breaking things off amicably. I'm fine with this. I feel like liking lots of people and wanting to date lots of people is sort of distracting for me. I wish I could shut off those drives. I told her that I'm happy bottom surgery will make me not focus on that stuff for a year. I really just want to find an ideal coparent for when I begin fostering and adopting. Everything I'm doing is to make myself, my community, and my city a more habitable place for them. I feel like my own romantic attractions are a distraction though. I've been considering that it may be better to do this alone than with a coparent I can't trust.
Recovery is still going well. My defense is three weeks. Everything is going great on paper but the stress of the fascists is pretty rough. My boss asked me if calling these people fascists is name-calling, so I put together a packet showing him how bad things are right now for transgender people in the United States. I'm not a Christian anymore, but I grew up on Veggie Tales and all that was playing through my head was the story of Esther risking herself to protect her people. I think we all have a responsibility to others and people like Sylvia Rivera were tortured for us to have the rights we do today. We have to be brave and we have to resist; it's not about winning but about the principle of the thing