02/13/2026

Pixel Time

I've been recovering from surgery. It's been difficult. I love my body. I love how my body looks with this new surgery. However, I have lifting restrictions. I have to sleep on my back. I cannot bend over or raise my arms over my head. My chest is constantly bound and aches if I am upright for too long. My therapist got me to think about recovery and rest as a form of work and that is helping. I miss dancing. My body wants dance and is twitchy. I need to get back on the pole.

My partner has been a huge help and has pointed out I should focus on my hobbies. Writing has been difficult because my mind cannot settle. Instead, I've been working on pixel art. I started joining pixel cliques a few months ago and sorta fell in love with pixel art. Enter Pixel Art Academy. I saw this software on Steam while looking at RPGMaker and other game software. It's an art course that focuses on form, lines, etc, but in the concept of pixel art. This has been the calming activity since I've been cooped up in the house for a week.

It's also just scary to be transgender in the US right now. I am doing my best to keep people like me safe and making sure people get their needs met. I'm still breaking down and crying sometimes. The only solace I have is that I'm building the community my future kid and maybe grandkids will live in.